“ its not something i can just escape or forget. in fact its something that i cant forget no matter how hard i try. its like my head tells me to let go and my heart tells me dont give up. and i didnt want to give up. i never wanted to. but you kept me waiting and waiting and i thought that it was gonna be worth it but then you walked away. like i was nothing you walked away. there was nothing else to do but block you out. act like i didnt care and i was done. but every single day it haunts me because i cant forget. its like having so much to say yet nobody to say it to. because you were my best friend. my everything. i couldnt talk to people the way i talked to you. you knew every flaw and every strength and you believed in me. thats what made you so different is that you believed in me. people always say they do but you actually ment it. and now im trying to look past it and i tell myself ill find better but i wont. because you were everything ive ever wanted and you knew that. you knew how much i cared. and everywhere i go i see something or someone that reminds me of you and i think about everything we went through and everyday theres something i wish i could tell you but i cant. so it just bottles up inside me. theres nowhere to turn. i try to talk to other people but im always searching for you. so here i am, just like always, waiting on forever. i guess i never knew just how long forever would be
“ i think it’s time i let you go. and that’s so hard to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. but the daydreaming, the running in place… it’s not healthy. so this is me, cutting the cord. this is me doing what i should have done a while ago: saying goodbye.
“ Words aren’t enough, my hearts not that tough;keep it bottled up inside cuz I know your by her side. It’s nights like these it hurts not thinking about it at all yet crossing my mind at once it hits me like a wall. As long as your happy I guess I am too. Just how long till I stop lying and let you know the truth.